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i was trying to be optimistic... trying to do stuffs i didn't find worth focusing on before. imagining myself growing older with the amount of responsibilities i'm taking in. happy to show them and tell them to the world. although the child in me is in outrage at the new change, i simply tried to go with the new phase i'm taking.

still... that's just it... i can never be perfect.

most of the people i know, friends, and new acquaintances, even my own mom ask advice from me sometimes. ideas that i feel helpful. and somehow, most of them regard me as someone with utmost wisdom. they even compliment me saying how could i be so understanding, patient, and what a strong woman, that i hardly believe it.

because, i can never be that strong... nor that proud.

i thought i was doing well... i tried preventing myself from doing extreme decisions. especially if it is under the impression of exaggeration. but right now... i just can't bear the idea that i didn't do anything, nor said a word, that might trigger the outbursts...

so, yeah... i have to find my old self...

Aloha!

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Nothing’s worth going than being in one of Hawaii’s famous island spots like Kauai, home for the known Napali Coast, a place overlooking a panoramic view of the Pacific Ocean lined with a spectacular coastline, and rich with magnificent waterfalls in deep narrow valleys, great for both adventure hikes, surfs, and bushwhacks. Stay on the place is never a problem with the help of a wide list of Kauai vacation homes that are simply a few walks away from the places that you’d like to see in the island.

Whether you’re a hiker or not, a traveler or mere spectator, you’ll never be sorry going to the land where the majestic nature is so alive you’d hardly believe there’s a place called heaven on earth. Truly a paradise with so much to offer, Kauai, Hawaii is just the best place to be to have the experience you’ll take home with you, and would probably crave for more after.

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unheard

sometimes, no matter what you do it'll never be enough. not if you've done too much to lose that trust.

i wonder... why it could be easy for someone to just ask you to step aside. to close the door for awhile behind you, leaving you the feeling that you can't do anything there. yes... that's it. there's just nothing you can do. what can i do then? oh right. leave in silence and shut up.

that's what i hate actually, times where you do decide to speak up but it makes things worst. tell me not to feel insecure when you thought you've said something right but ended up being shut.

i just had to let this all out for a while. i don't have my usual friend to talk too. she's out of town. so i really have no one but this. maybe i'd shut off the comment board as well? just to keep the game rolling? but no. i don't really know what i want. just some sense, and some importance, acknowledgement, and appreciation. nothing more. oh yeah... and real trust. sigh...

till later.

Tricy ride?

ah yes... just when i thought it's safer to come home early i get to experience unwanted incidents. a bit, whatever.

i was walking home the other night, around 9:30pm when yet again i was offered a free tricycle ride passing by me. do i look like i can't manage the short walk? this will be the third time that i was asked to join in because the tricycle is anyway on its way home similar to my street, but the only difference is i don't feel at ease with the driver.

the first two offers i took because the first one was a "suki" driver (tricycle that i always get to ride on regularly going to the mall), the next one i also took because he does look familiar and he really lives just within a mild radius from our house, but this last one? it was driven by a younger guy with another guy behind him and they don't look safe for me.

so i declined the offer.

they kept insisting that it's okay their not to harm me or whatever, but i can't get myself to say yes.. all i did for a number of times was say, "no, thanks, but im fine... and im almost home anyway... thanks again..." and kept walking as calmly but stiff and fast as i could. still they kept insisting, reiterating that i don't have to pay and that they find they're wasting gas if they don't have a passenger with them and would like the company, still i said "NO.THANKS." to my surprise they brought the tricy across the right lane, right in front of me. like that's gonna convince me. the more i said, hard and strong, "NO.get going."

when im almost around the corner they finally gave up, (thank God!), mumbled a few, "fine, don't then." and went on their way. like what was that all about?

the firsts were blessings, this last was stupidly arrogant and scary.

glad to be home safe anyway. GEEZ!

ME WANT IT SO BAD!

ah yes... im supposed to rant in this part of my alterego blog, right? i forgot... must've been too busy at work, searching for money making to do's around the internet and the likes that i couldn't find time to release my raves... oh yes... no harsh words or heavy feelings that i want to share in this blog. why would i it's just some silly complaints that i'm planning to write here and not some kinda freak hating the world sort of scheme that im after for anyway...

sigh...

im still in badly longing of that laptop... i want my own smaller LAPTOP!!!!! im screaming my lungs out!!!!! I WANT THAT LAPTOP SO BADDDDDDD!

so, anyone out there looking for a freelance writer, i'm available. im good at research, informative and ecommerce deals so hire me! im open! work at home thingamajigs available out there hear me out! i need some side line income! NOW!!!!!

whew...