over a few bottles of beer

yup, i did say im addicted to coffee and the conversations that i was suppose to fill in here are during my coffee breaks before coming to the office. oh well, during my day off i went with my old group of friends, because it was some sort of emergency meeting. the cause? ME. as if im about to die. they just kept asking what's wrong with me and i told them part of the reasons why my face is as sour as that man's face on the vinegar commercial. actually my face is worse than that, and my eyes were dreading to burst with tears. i tried not to cry i must not.

and so after telling them the reason of my sad and depressed wishing to die face, they started telling me advises. the ever loving bunny gave me quite a lot, saying, i don't believe it, guys says the most stupid thing but he's different. i know he's got some good excuse and the bottom of it all is to avoid hurting you over and over again. remember that he's in a bad situation right now, and so alone. you should understand that. and i keep saying, i do... i do understand. i don't know what the cause is. all of a sudden im lost about what we're really arguing about?! oh well, it went on like that for hours and so.

anyway, the best quote that he left me would be this:

"every hard iron softens in the right amount of fire... and time."

i was awed. it is really not too often that this blabber 24/7 rascal mouth guy speaks something that actually made sense. he's a good friend but we're too the same that we contradict each other often. but this time, i was speechless. but that was only until he started talking non stop again about keep holding on, don't give up, he'll be back, we all have plans, he just wants the best for you, etc... etc... etc...

but he's right actually. and i told him... oh for goodness sake rabbit! im only crying and feeling lonely, but who says im letting go. im not giving up. i never will... i love that man and he has to bear with it whether he likes it or not.

i trust my man. i know what rabbit meant when he said all those stuffs. it is true. that he only sees what's best for me. but i need him. and i want him. that's why i guess i was holding on too tight.

things will be better. i pray it will... and forever, our relationship will always be in His hands. i know He'll keep this relationship safe. as always... :')